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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

IT'S ALL IN THE TIMING

It is ironic how just after we got licensed to become foster to adopt parents Sang would have this conversation with a gentleman we have met some what recently and have grown to love very quickly (before the conversation). Conversation goes as follows:
Friend: "so why haven't you guys tried In Vitro?"
Sang: "we just can't afford it."
Friend: "Make an appointment, I will take care of the rest."
Sang: "umm, you know it is expensive right?"
Friend: "yes my kids did it"
Sang: "you must love me."
Friend: "nope I love Heidi, you guys need to become parents."

After Sang told me about this conversation and I stopped crying, we discussed how we felt about the offer. After feeling all kinds of emotions like, guilt, pressure, happiness, and complete shock. We had decided that we would try the cheaper artificial insemination (IUI) an few times first before taking the offer.
So I made an appt with a dr who can do the IUI. I was just at the end of a 3 month lupron treatment for my endometriosis so we thought it is all at great timing. The dr put me on a new version of Clomid and a week later I went in to see if it did what it was supposed to (stimulate my ovaries so I produce more eggs than normal) and nothing. There was not one single follicle. so he switched me to Clomid (I have never had any problem with Clomid doing what it is supposed to) so a week later I head over there and once again, nothing. The dr raised the strength and told me to come back. On the way home I told Sang that since I am older and after all the treatments I have gone through in the past I was scared that since girls are born with just so many eggs, that I was running out. So we stopped everything with that dr and made an appointment to U of U.
As we were going through this we got a call from our case worker. She tells me that they have a little 2 year old boy who the parents haven't done everything they have been asked and it looks like he will be up for adoption in Aug if the parents don't change the direction it is going. The foster parents that had him needed someone to watch him for the weekend so they asked us to so we could see if he would be a good fit for our family. The boy was so good and he did everything I asked. I would tell him it was time for bed or nap and he would start putting toys away and go point to the crib and say "bed". When I told him it was time for bath he took off for the bathroom as he was ripping his shirt off. He was so good and so cute. I prayed and prayed that I would know for myself if he is meant to be in our family or if we should proceed with IVF.
As the weekend came to a close I got my answer. After dropping him off to his foster parents Sang and I sat down and found that we both got the same answer. IVF it is.

We had our first appointment on April 21st. It was great. We discussed the process of IVF and all of the variation factors that come with, if your this happens then we will do this, if that happens then we will need to do that, and on and on. I thought the big decision would just be doing the procedure. I was very uneducated. The dr did an ultrasound and found 18 follicles. WHAT!!! I hadn't been on any med for over 2 weeks and that is what he found. CRAZY!

So they tell us that if we are ok with proceeding all we need to do is wait for my cycle to begin and then they will put me on birth control to get control of what my body is doing. They gave me a rx and sent us on our way. We stopped at the temple on our way home and when we got out they had called and left a message that after discussion they felt there was no reason to wait for my cycle. I could start the birth control that day. The plan was for my to be on b/c for at least 12 days then I would start my low dose daily lupron injections. They always start the injections on a Sunday and it turns out my day 12 was a Sunday. We got it all arranged for the lupron to be delivered to my house so I could start them. This last Sunday, May 2nd, was my first lupron injection. I have an appointment to go in for an ultrasound on the 12th.

SO, the man who felt the need to pay for this. After knowing us for a short time he said that he was in the temple and felt prompted that he needed to help us financially to have children. At that time he had no idea our fertility story and didn't even know if we were even trying to have children. He got to know us more and our situation and when he felt the time was right...had the conversation with Sang.
We feel so watched over and blessed. We have no idea what the out come will be. We feel really good about it. BUT IF it doesn't happen for us, we both know that we can move forward to adoption without wondering about the one procedure to have our own that we couldn't afford. I know that we have been watched over and that Heavenly Father has a plan for our future and our future children.
I will keep updating as we go through the different steps.

13 comments:

Momma Dianna said...

What a hardship to go through Heidi! I had no idea! I'll be praying for you guys that you hear some good news soon. Hugs and good luck! Email me if you'd like a blog invite modelgirl1@gmail.com

-Dianna

Tyson, Jennie and Cedric said...

That is so cool. I would have been absolutely floored if someone did that for us. How exciting!! Good luck with everything!

Nicole said...

Best of Luck, we will be thinking of you guys.

Erin said...

There are good samaritans everywhere. That is amazing! What a selfless person. I hope things go as you hope they will. Can't wait to hear they outcome!

Jordan said...

Oh, Heidi! What a blessing! You're in my prayers!

April said...

WOw Heidi that is amazing. What a story. You guys are going about it all the right way. I am so happy for you and so happy there are amazing people out there willing to help. We will continue to pray for you. Good luck and I hope it goes well. Love you guys. I am so sorry this has been such a journey.

April said...

WOw Heidi that is amazing. What a story. You guys are going about it all the right way. I am so happy for you and so happy there are amazing people out there willing to help. We will continue to pray for you. Good luck and I hope it goes well. Love you guys. I am so sorry this has been such a journey.

Sara & Bryce said...

Heidi- this is so exciting! I hope that it works out for you. :) i got all teary-eyed reading it. well we love you guys and are sad that we're not in the same ward any more. but please keep in touch- 801-550-4395- good luck!

Missy said...

Heidi I have been thinking and praying for you hope this all goes well please let me know if you need anything good luck love ya!!

Justin...&...Andrea said...

Heidi, I just want you to know what an amazing example you and Sang have been to me. Really, I just watch all that you have been through and how you both are always so positive and keep a smile on your face no matter what. I wish you guys the best of luck and will keep you in my prayers!

Shauna Spendlove said...

I'm so glad you left a message on my blog! I didn't even know you had one! I was so happy to read your post! It made me cry! I'm so happy for you guys that you get to try! I have a friend down here who had IVF and is pregnant right now! Good luck and we will pray for you guys! You have such a great attitude! Keep in touch!

Kristy said...

Heidi, that is so wonderful. I love your positive outlook on life and your faith. Do you know Lisa Hurst, its Sarah Hurts older sister. She just recently did IVF and it worked, you can click on her link from mine and read her story if you want. I'll keep you guys in my prayers.

Blaisdell's said...

Heidi, I wish you and Sang the best of luck! I really hope that it works out for you. You are an example to all with what you have gone through! I can't wait to hear the outcome.