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Thursday, March 5, 2009

What's new with our crew

There has been a lot going on around here but sadly I haven't taken pictures of any of it. Sang "borrowed" my batteries from my camera and I have been to lazy to either get them back or go get new one's. First things first. I really don't want this to sound like a pity party for myself but I do believe that if you share your experiences you never know who might be touched and who's lives you may bless in some way. Last fall I started a three month treatment to of Lupron shots to help with my endometriosis, this med puts your body in the beginning fazes of menopause and cleans out then endoblah blah blah, so yes, I had mood swings (just ask Sang) and hot flashes out the wazzoo. I finished my treatments the we had to just wait for the right time with my body to try artificial insemenation. In the begining of Dec that time came and after a long week and a few other complications we finally did it. Then we had the waiting game to see if it worked. After almost 2 weeks a co-worker of mine talked me into taking a test. So I peed and it was positive, I didn't believe it so I peed again, positive again. Still not beleiving I made her draw the blood. The result came back later that night with a positive. We were going to be sending our last day with Sangs sister's family before they went back home to Cali from their Christmas visit so with Sang being such a HUGE family man I figured what better way to tell Sang than in front of his family. I went to the store and got a little baby outfit and wrapped it and when we got there, without anyone seeing had Sang's youngest niece (she was 3) give him the present. When he opened it he was so dang cute, he kept saying, "Are you serious?" with a HUGE smile on his face. It was just as I had hoped it would be. After that Sang was so cute. Everything was about the baby and he couldn't keep his hands off my tummy. A few days later I got a call from the dr who did the insemenation saying she saw my results but wanted me to do it again to make sure my levels were going up, because they forgot to tell me that one of the meds they had given me right before doing the procedure could cause a positive. I knew right away that it couldn't be good. That it was to good to be true. I did the test and alas it was just the med, I wasn't pregnant. It broke my heart to have to tell Sang. But with him being one of the most positive people I know he comforted me and helped me get through it. A few days later we were talking about it and he told me to figure out what adpotion agency I wanted to go through. I know without a doubt that as bad as it sucked going through it, this is exactly what we needed to get on the same page. Sang finally understood better what I have been through the last 10 years. He now understood how hard it is to get your hopes up and see it not work in the way that you so badly wanted. I know Heavenly Father was watching over us. I felt Him with us the WHOLE time. I guess at first I thought since I felt Him there so strongly that this would be the time, but obviously He was there the whole time to be a comfort. SO.... I did some homework and we feel good about going through LDS Services. We had to wait till our 2nd anniversary to start the paperwork (our ann was on Monday, March 2nd). Yesterday we had our orintation interview and they gave us the first few steps of paperwork. Sang is so amazing and has been such a rock for me to lean on. I have been so blessed!!!!
I thought I would have more time to write more that we have done the last few months but my time has run out for now. So, until next time......

13 comments:

April said...

Oh Heidi, I was so excited for you. I am so sorry they didn't explain it better to you, I bet you were so excited and how hard to have to come down from that. I am glad you too have each other and I am excited for this new journey for you. I wish you all the best of luck. you are in our prayers, trials are so hard and its hard to know why we go through what we do, I am still trying to figure that out but I too am grateful for heavenly Father and prayer. Thanks for sharing. I have a friend who has gone through a lot of this as well, you should check out her blog, its under my friends, Amanda and Jared, they now have a healthy little baby boy they adopted. I think you could learn a lot from her and her from you.

Ber said...

Heidi,
Happy Anniversary to you and Sang! And we'll keep you guys in our prayers! Love you!

DeAnna said...

Oh man that is tough. I'm so sorry for all that you have been through.....your story definately touched my heart! Sang does sound like such a great and supportive guy! Adoption can be so wonderful and who knows what Heavenly Father has in store for your family. I wish you the very best and hope that you will keep your faith in Him strong....love ya! Keep us posted!

Kwatson said...

Oh Heidi-I love you so much! You are so strong. One of my best friends has adopted 2 babies through LDS social services. She is also one of their "spokespersons" (if that's what it's called). If you ever want her number I know she would be glad to talk to you about it all. Let me know!

t and e said...

Heidi, that is so sad. False positives are so frustrating. I'm so happy for you guys to be adopting, I hope you are feeling ok with all your test and things. Let us know if we can do anything. Keep us updated on the adoption progress.

Mand'e said...

What a huge range of emotions your blog just sent me through, so I can't even begin to imagine what you and Sang have gone through. I have nothing but good feelings and energy around me when I think of you becoming a mother...It's going to happen for you!

Love,
Mande-Oh

Nicole said...

I hope all goes well with the adoption process. Happy Anniversary.

Amy said...

I'm sorry for everything you've gone through Heidi. I hope that the adoption process goes smoothly for you! That's so great that you are able to start the papers and everything now.

Amy said...

Ugh! That is so frustrating! But, I know from our experiences with fertility treatments and adoption that everything happens for a reason! I am so excited that you have started the adoption process. Here is a new blog about adoption that I have found: www.becauseadoptionmatters.blogspot.com

Good luck! Let us know if we can do anything to help out!

Also, not to say that LDSFS is not right for you, but Heart and Soul told us that they have more babies than families. Maybe it's not right for you, but just thought I'd let you know!

Yay! We are so excited for you! Adoption is a trying, but wonderful thing and totally worth it!

Our Chase Family said...

Good luck with everything!! You guys are such stong wonderful people!

*mInDi-N-cHaD* said...

oh heidi! i am so sorry for all the ups and downs you've gone through. i hope everything works out for your adoption. :0) keep smiling.

Jeff and Susan said...

Wow you are so strong, you are such an amazing example to all of us and we all support you guys so much and wish you the best of luck with everything. Love ya!!!

Rachel and Travis said...

Oh wow!I can't even begin to imagine how heart breaking that must have been. But, it's true, Heavenly Father knows what He is doing, and I'm sure He was with you guys the whole time. I'm SO GLAD that something good came from that whole experience though! Good luck adopting, I hope it goes well. You guys wil be great parents becuase you'll cherish and appreciate you children so much more!
Way to be strong throughout that whole thing! I look up to you!